Friday, August 22, 2008
At the end of the day today I felt that I didn't achieve anything.
Have you ever had a lot of things that you wanted to do in a day and then you realize that the day is gradually ending without you doing the stuff that you wanted to in the first place..
Wanted to work today but in the end I dun have to.. told my
lil brother to revise his studies but it fell on deaf ears.. he played GAME! irritating la.. Btw..I really appeciate that you offer to tutor my lil brother..Really2 thankful.. Thank u soo much.. You're such a dear. Thank you e1rwan.
Tried practising the songs needed for the upcoming gig.. had some problems with 'let the flames begin', the chorus part.. (the song on my blog) and 'bring me to life' was still a struggle.. Sometimes I wonder why the hell do I choose songs that I am not confident of bringing.. Just trying to show off perhaps.. stupid.
When I sing I sometimes feel like I'm shouting out the song rather than singing it which sometimes gets me frustrated.. it's funny.. Something i love to do
soo much is causing me frustrations.. I really need to get my techniques right.. went to U-tube for videos on how to hit the high notes better.. this guy called
charlesprinceofswing or something like that.. he has like several videos on singing like from part1 all the way to 16 or 17.. he was more like those '
figaro-
ish' type of operatic voices.. and really jazzy.. great tips.. but needs time to nurture and a lot of practise.
"It's not all about the breathing.. breathing is only 10%.. If proper breathing is the most
essential element in singing, the greatest
athletes of the world will be the best singers.. which they ARE NOT!"
-quoted by Mr
Charlesprinceofswing- (
haha)
OMG..
I really feel like I can't control my emotions nowadays..
-that time of the month- it really sucks.. with these stupid cramps.. fuck! (here i go again with all the vulgarities...)
and not only that.. I get moody. Yesterday was
Aan's Birthday.. had something in mind.. a so called plan to go to
sentosa.. but he said that he's having dinner with his family at night.. I have
nooo idea why this stupid temper has to flare off.. He's having dinner with his FAMILY for god's sake.. why the hell are you
flippin' out for...?? I'm being totally ridiculous.. I was actually REALLY UPSET! for an hour before I get a grip of myself.. fight my stupid
EMO disease. I changed my plans to meet him up earlier and everything was solved... that was easy right?stupid temper. ......!!! He wasn't aware of me being mad for that.... I'm such a big faker. haiz..
Anyways.. I really had a great time yesterday.. tanx ida for the sentosa luge and skyride thingy.. Skyide was terrifying..--height phobia.. I even enjoyed the dinner with his family..at Sakura. Bought him levis jeans and a silver bracelet..Made him a compilation video of us..He loved it.. which I'm glad..Thought it might be a lil cheesy for a rocker like him..hmm.. Anyways, Happy 25th Birthday dear..and 1year Anniversary..
Today I was pretty
bumbed out that I didn't get to work.. but people has my best interest at heart.. how appreciative can I be? But no.. I just had 'merajuk'..get emo-ish.. poor fella had to apologize
alot of times for thinking about my well-being.. I am such an ASS. A big one.. Sorry Mutton! Didn't mean to show my temper..Sorryyyyy! and plz dun apologize ok..
Was U-tubing and saw the live version of 'let the flames begin'.. there's kind of a drum solo before the song officially starts which was pretty cool.. knowing the capabilities of our current drummer.. I had send him the link of the video via
msn.. I asked him..how? can try? Without trying at all.. all he said was.. I can't do drum solos and "
mase dah suntuk.." which means not enough time.. so much for a drummer that I respect.. why is it so difficult to say..
ok I'll try.. is that so much to ask for..?
The company I'm suppose to work with for a few events didn't get back to me.. I'm so gonna be frggin' broke end of this month... haiz.. stupid.. Seelah..don't give constraints somemore.. I'm such an idiot.. the esplanade job--still under training course.
Found out that
A'an had to sing for tomorrow's concert at
Haogang stadium.. with Ignition. He was suppose to go watch it with me la. Now I have to go alone! sucks big time.
wth la..
Now I'm going to hide under the covers
and cry....
Sorry if any of things said above offended anyone. I'm currently having mood
SWINGGGGGSSS! I'm being unreasonable and sickeningly temperamental... Stay away from this
grumpyfit for at least a few more days...
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